I feel like I need to write something but I still am not feeling like I know what to write. I have no inspiration. I am slowly picking up the pieces and putting them back together. I have fallen apart in this house in this life completely shattered. I don’t know who, what or where. I am slowly finding my pieces and putting them back where they belong. I keep saying that it was the weather that made me feel this broken that may be true in part. I don’t think I really know what exactly broke me nor do I care. I just want to find myself whole again. I need to be whole for my baby girl, for my husband and for all of the other people that surround me. I am sure all of you have been affected by my funk. I am working hard to get it together.
I thought that maybe I needed to relocate to find my pieces but truly if I am happy with myself, my marriage, my family and my life then it doesn’t really matter where I am.
I am honest I will tell you how it is in my opinion, I laugh often and loudly and sometimes even at you and in your face. I like to be different so don’t judge me you judgers. I love deeply those that I feel deserve my love. I have certain looks on my face that may be interpreted a certain way don’t think you know what I am thinking. I am loyal to those that return the favour and I mean that in the deepest form of loyalty you could imagine. I don’t always know how to behave or what to say when situations change or get awkward but it doesn’t mean that I don’t care. Most of these pieces have always been true about me I have forgotten some of them and I think you have forgotten some of them too. These are the things that you love about me the most. So don`t think for a second that I will change. I have been bitter, angry, annoyed and betrayed but these things only strengthen who I am and how my pieces fit. You may have caused me to feel any one of these emotions but it didn`t make me worse off. Quite the opposite actually! Just don’t assume anything about me because you are probably wrong.
I am now raising a daughter to be herself her own unique and honest. I will impart these characteristics to her as well as nurture the characteristics that she will learn and acquire from life. She is surrounded by an amazing world and community. One in which gave her two parents that survived just fine.
I with my husband and my daughter am living this life whole and full of life. Well if you know us you know that we are always laughing historically and I am content with those things alone.
I thought that maybe I needed to relocate to find my pieces but truly if I am happy with myself, my marriage, my family and my life then it doesn’t really matter where I am.
I am honest I will tell you how it is in my opinion, I laugh often and loudly and sometimes even at you and in your face. I like to be different so don’t judge me you judgers. I love deeply those that I feel deserve my love. I have certain looks on my face that may be interpreted a certain way don’t think you know what I am thinking. I am loyal to those that return the favour and I mean that in the deepest form of loyalty you could imagine. I don’t always know how to behave or what to say when situations change or get awkward but it doesn’t mean that I don’t care. Most of these pieces have always been true about me I have forgotten some of them and I think you have forgotten some of them too. These are the things that you love about me the most. So don`t think for a second that I will change. I have been bitter, angry, annoyed and betrayed but these things only strengthen who I am and how my pieces fit. You may have caused me to feel any one of these emotions but it didn`t make me worse off. Quite the opposite actually! Just don’t assume anything about me because you are probably wrong.
I am now raising a daughter to be herself her own unique and honest. I will impart these characteristics to her as well as nurture the characteristics that she will learn and acquire from life. She is surrounded by an amazing world and community. One in which gave her two parents that survived just fine.
I with my husband and my daughter am living this life whole and full of life. Well if you know us you know that we are always laughing historically and I am content with those things alone.
I am on my way back.
Sigh... I feel you feeling again. I love you My Wings.
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